i screwed up my exams.
u didnt encourage me.
u tell me to let him sign the report slip if it sucks.
o fuck.
u tell me i use vulgarities.
u have never encouraged me when i failed.
u only want to see me do well.
u have never considered how i feel.
u told me that we have no money.
u think it motivates me.
i say it worries me worst.
i used to be able to perform because there's an inspiration.
now my inspiration has lower qualifications than me.
my inspiration does nothing but golf in times like this.
my inspiration knows only to watch lame taiwanese news and sigh.
wtf.
its not fair.
i have never let u feel worried.
u have never failed to worry me.
u are going to take the labtop away to make me work.
its not going to work.
u are taking away my feeling of being closer to my friends.
u think its my fault when i screw up.
i say its my fault.
but i couldn't have screwed up with inspiration and motivation.
u can nv provide me with that.

but if you will ever see this, i will still like to say:
im sorry. i have failed you. Im sorry for hurling vulgarities all abt.
i love you.

but i know you never will.

love
spoon